17 February 2008 - 16:32Good Week, Bad Meeting

So over all I think I had a very good week. I completed my two goals: eating all my points and working out. I had some success such a fitting into smaller clothes and not freaking out by eating too many points. Yeah, it was a rocking week.

Until I went to my WW meeting. Ugh. I hate to be a whiny baby, but the meeting part of WW hasn’t been going so well for me. First, I am very limited on when I can go because of my busy schedule so I can choose between two team leaders.  The one I’ve been going to hasn’t really been helpful. She seems to favor those who are skinnier or have lost a lot of weight. And she doesn’t have time to talk to me after meetings. She just refers to me eTools.  I’ve been to eTools thank you very much, that’s why I’m asking you now–I still don’t know. And I’m shy about this meeting thing, so I don’t really talk to anyone. Anyways, long story short, I don’t feel like we talk about the challenges, like plateaus and the slow rate of losing. We just - celebrate those who have lost-a lot. So, what about me? The slow and surely person? Today was actually my 16 week”keepin’ with it” celebration and they forgot. And as a person who hasn’t lost a lot of weight, I feel really silly raising my hand asking people to celebrate for me when it doesn’t seem like that’s the culture I’m in.  I could barley get out the door before I started bawling. I don’t feel inspired or encouraged at meetings. I only feel like I’m not losing fast enough or not trying hard enough. I feel like if I was a better person I’d lose more–just like the people we’re celebrating.

Anyways, this is frustrating me right now. I’m gonna think about quiting the meetings and just staying on eTools. It’s just not a good way to end the week.