I love breakfast burritos. That’s all there is to it. Usually I can live off of low-carb tortillas, egg beaters, and turkey bacon–but this was not one of those days. I haven’t been sleeping well, the weather is cold, the boy is sick, classes are awful and I guess I’m just an emotional eater. This morning I bought a 15 point burrito and felt bad for all of 5 minutes. (OK–maybe a little longer, I did hide if from a co-worker who thinks him self my (kindly) WW task master) But you know what–I don’t feel bad while I was enjoying every single bite. I won’t feel bad about it now. I’ve ate healthy the rest of the day and will continue to eat healthy. If I plan right, I wont even use any of my flex points. The funny things was, come lunch, I wasn’t hungry at all. That burrito and maybe my pride kept me full for almost six hours!

So I have taken Roni’s advice and I weight myself first thing every morning. Just to make sure I’m on the right tract. I don’t freak out about a number–I just like to have some guidance. I do freak out when my scale jumps plus or minus two pounds in the matter of seconds. Do your scales do that too? First hop on–one pound gain. No problem. I can deal with that. Second hop on-two pound gain. In 24 hours? I’m not so sure. Third hop on-two and half pound loss from previous day’s weight. Fourth hop on-Same as third. I quit after four tries. I wasn’t risking my scales being temperamental again. And my scales almost always do this, fluctuate two to three pounds the first couple of times I hop on in the morning. Maybe I need new scales. Maybe I should stop hopping and just gently step on the scales. :)

I’ve been able to make a lot of good chances since joining WW. I’ve started eating all my vegetables every day and I’ve been cooking at home a lot more. Overall I’m very proud of all I’ve been able to accomplish, but accomplishing goals seems to make mistakes more noticeable. I definitely need to work on some things–mainly weekend splurging and getting more active.I do very well through other week as far as eating, but come the weekend I tend to splurge. I do all sorts of splurging–extra snacks, fried foods, eating late, frozen pizza–all of it. But while I’m eating things I wouldn’t normally at least I’m still remembering to control my portions. I guess a small sliver of frozen pizza is better than a while frozen pizza, right? Baby steps.

The second thing I need to work on it getting more active. I have a desk job where I must be tethered to a phone eight hours a day. It’s hard to fit in fitness when I can’t leave my desk. And I live in a city that isn’t very walking-friendly. I cross my heart and hope to die, the only people who walk here are hookers. Well, there are a few others, but mainly hookers. For reals! Not to mention there isn’t much in walking distance. This town just wasn’t made for walkers. And there doesn’t seem to be any time. Work and school leave little time for anything.

But!Those are all excuses. I know what I need to do–its just a matter of doing it! Today I might not be able to make it to the gym, but I’m sure as heck gonna do enough cleaning to burn a few calories.

Today at meeting someone brought a little poem they had found on one of the Weight Watchers boards. It was titled “If I lost a pound a week.” If I lost a pound a week, I’d be at my goal weight in a year. Sometimes a year sounds like a very long time but at other times, a year doesn’t sound like that long at all when I think about the bigger picture. A year of hard work and effort so that I might have the tools to live the rest of my life healthier and with more ease.I think about last year, and it went by so fast. I think about all the years before that, and they went quickly as well. For me, time just seems to fly–so what is one year? I can do it! I know I can!

So this is my first official blog post. I’ve been toying around with this site for a while but I’ve been having a hard time actually posting. See, I’m actually kinda afraid of the internet. Don’t get me wrong–I love playing on the net and I spend a lot of time surfing–especially weight loss and health blogs–but there is just something terrifying about putting myself out there for anyone and everyone to see. Does that make sense?But I’ve gotten such inspiration from so many people and I’ve seen what a great weight loss tool blogging is, so I’m trying it out! Here goes nothing!